Today is Friday and I am getting ready go to work. I am sure that today the building where I work the business is going to be slow. I don't expect much business activity day after Christ mast. As I arrived at work, I noticed few cars parked inside the parking garage. To my surprise, I observe quiet of few cars parked. Yes, very few, but I taken back of people coming to work day after Christ mast.
Anyways, I am at work so I might as well do something constructing such as reading a book. I going to work today with my dread co-worker, Alicia. I don't dislike her or found distasteful, however, I do find her irritating. Figuratively, Alicia can pitch your skin and fine ways to annoy someone. I don't know exactly what it is about her, but I can assure you it gets to me. I don't lose my control during some of our disagreements when we talk. I just stay calm about the matter and later complain just to make think she has the upper hand. I prefer to walk away from her annoying nagging and just move around the building away from her. Today, I just want the day to go fast.
In order to make the day go fast, I am going to read. My first story was, "The Story of an Hour", and, " The Storm" both from Kate Chopin. "The Story of an Hour" is about a woman, Mrs Ballard getting the dreaded news about her husband getting killed in an accident. Dreaded news is not for her. At first, she is engulf by emotions of hearing her husband death. She runs inside her room to express her emotions, but something happen. She is unable to control herself from this subconscious true emotions that she truly wants to extrovert. Slowly, the real emotions comes out. She is free! She free from her husband. We don't know exactly why she over joy of her husband death. The story does not give any indication if the husband was emotionally or physically abusing Mrs. Ballard. We only can assume such dreaded things that happen. Obviously, the relationship of these two individuals was not well. Or, maybe the relationship was well in the point of view of the husband. Mrs. Ballard lived in a time of women knew her place, the home. We don't exactly how they came to join this marriage. Was it rearrange for economic, social or for family gain?
It is clearly that Mrs Ballard is free from this man, not husband, because there is no love, but just a mirage of love. Her desire to spend another time with this man is wishful thinking. She cried because she was condition to cry in such tragedy event. However, once she gather herself, Mrs Ballard slowly began to bring the past of what this man did to her. Her images of this man is not of joy, but pain, suppression, hurtfulness and fear. It is clear that during their marriage Mrs Ballard, was unhappy and now that her despotic husband died she can be joyful like never before and that is why she died over joy. She did not died of the heart, but because she was free from his wrath. She must have waited for this day and the day it came, she was going to rest in peace.
The second story is The Storm. The story concentrates on three characters. The storm, Alice and Calixta. This fast moving storm moves into town, which ironically brings two couples back together. Calixta is marry and has a son and Alice is married as well, but they both have sentimental memories of each other. It is clearly that both characters desire each other, but its unknown why they move apart from each other. Best educated assumption I can bring is that Calixta married the wrong person not because on her part, but based on culture and custom ways. She married because her family had prearrange the marriage. Women were not free to use her husband, but it arrange for political and economical reasons. The true love did exist. True love existed below the surface line. However, their love for each other was known. Calixta and Alice would never see each alone for that reason. However, this storm brought them together to rekindle old fond memories. Could this mean the beginning or just spur of the moment. The story does not get into more detail, but rest assure, this feeling are not going away, which could lead to build up of sentimental love. True love is for the keeping and never goes away unless it is activated and once activated, it cannot be stop. Yes, she is married as well as Alice, but their true love is close to them, but very far to reach.
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Diary: December 25, 2008
Today is Thursday and Santa Claus has left our home. Today is Christ mast, but we don't really celebrated in the traditional way the American do. In fact, the gift were passed yesterday to my parents, except for my sisters and brother. Alejandra was not present and Gabriela was sleeping. My brother was in the room reading. Today is a time to relax from work and take break from the hectic everyday life. I taking this time to relax and to visit my girlfriend whom I did not buy her gift yet. I don't know what gift I can give her, but I am pretty sure my mind will start to explore the options. My minds works better under pressure because I am able to concentrate at the issue at hand. Strange how the minds work. I imagine that I get my blood and neurons flowing throughout my god given brain. Anyway, I am still thinking.
Diary: December 24, 2008
Today is Wednesday, the day before Christ mast. Tomorrow is the day to spend it with your family and get to know converse of the past, present and future happening in our life. In reality, my family does not follow this tradition because we are disconnected. Starting with myself, I am very reserved in my own strange ways. I like to maintain good communication outside my family, but within I don't practice what I preach. I don't know why I get to be disconnected with my family. I am not sure how I got this behavior, which I am having difficult to break off. I do want to share the happy memories and communicate with them more emotionally and personal, but I just can't do it. Is it pride to admit my feeling to them? Was I raised cold blooded? I don't know, but I want to change that. My dad and mom are not getting any younger and in fact, with my dad's medical condition, I start to imagine when the dreaded day comes. Of course, no one wants to think that in the family, however, we must be prepare for it emotionally and financially. The one and only family member that I can talk to very close is my sister, Alejandra. She is more like dad in her emotional state. She is more open and easy to communicate about everyday life and attempts to make our family come more together.
What can I do to bridge the gap with my family? I have debated this question many times this year. I want to communicate better and show my true emotions rather than hidden from them. It is not that I am not conscious of my family emotions. I do take in consideration the trouble they go through and the difficulties we as a family deal with everyday. I want to help them. I want to get my education and graduate with a bachelor degree in order to pursue my dream job. I want them to leave peacefully and financially stable so they can enjoy life. Life is too short for us to be apart emotionally. I for see a change and my new year resolution is going to be just that. I want to come closer to them because life can end instantly.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Diary: December 23, 2008
Today is Wednedsday, but I am recounting my Tuesdays events. Yesterday, I worked early in the morning for Mario. He is leaving the company for newer and better things. He was hired has an accountant. I wish the gentleman the best of luck.
Now, I was sitting at the loading dock and usually is a slowly painful wait so the day could end, but it was total opposite. The morning went quite fast. The morning began by me reading Sunday's newspaper. I like to read the newspaper because it helps me in every aspect of my education and expand my knowledge in world events. I could not read the entire newspaper only after midday. I took the time to speak to Carlos, Jantrez, employee. He is does daily porter duties throughout the building. He likes to talk. His behavior is very innocent when he approaches a person. However, I know that he acts gentle and all innocent in order to get what he needs. He approaches with a very delicate manner that begs for assistance. He does not like to make on the spot decision when he encounters them. It is not that he is not sure, but prefer someone else to make the decision for him to avoid and finger pointing toward him. He prefers to avoid problems and resolved them even without questioning is legality, ethics, moral and rationale. Is it fear? It is fear being without a job. Especially with the current economical situation the nation and the world is going through.
We spoke about diversify subject that were very enjoyable. He wanted to know from me if his english was understood from the a scale 1 to 10. He speaks the english very good. He might get stuck in speaking some word, but overall he speaks the language better than some that have been living in Miami, Florida for many years.
Anyways, the time went fast. I departed from work to go to the gym for a few hours before going home. I didn't stay too long in the gym because I had a appointment with my girfriend Maria at Aventura Mall. She is going to help in buying christmast present for my family. It won't take long because I already have a mental pictures what to buy for my family. I don't really like going to the mall during the holidays. It gets crowded with people and parking is like finding a needle in a haystack. However, we got lucky. We found a parking on the second level right next to the Macy store. We were fortunate because during the holidays parking is at a premium.
Once we finish shopping, we went to get something to eat. We got a philly cheese steak sandwhich value meal. The sandwhich was alright, but it did not have any flavor like the one in publix. Anyway, I am not going to dwell on it.
Afterwards, we left the mall and the night was over. My girlfriend could not stay longer because she had to wake up early in the morning to work. The good news for her that she is getting out of work early around noon.
As for me, I went home watch a little bit of Modern Marvel which is my favorite show. I stayed up alittle late, but fell asleep. Good night.
Now, I was sitting at the loading dock and usually is a slowly painful wait so the day could end, but it was total opposite. The morning went quite fast. The morning began by me reading Sunday's newspaper. I like to read the newspaper because it helps me in every aspect of my education and expand my knowledge in world events. I could not read the entire newspaper only after midday. I took the time to speak to Carlos, Jantrez, employee. He is does daily porter duties throughout the building. He likes to talk. His behavior is very innocent when he approaches a person. However, I know that he acts gentle and all innocent in order to get what he needs. He approaches with a very delicate manner that begs for assistance. He does not like to make on the spot decision when he encounters them. It is not that he is not sure, but prefer someone else to make the decision for him to avoid and finger pointing toward him. He prefers to avoid problems and resolved them even without questioning is legality, ethics, moral and rationale. Is it fear? It is fear being without a job. Especially with the current economical situation the nation and the world is going through.
We spoke about diversify subject that were very enjoyable. He wanted to know from me if his english was understood from the a scale 1 to 10. He speaks the english very good. He might get stuck in speaking some word, but overall he speaks the language better than some that have been living in Miami, Florida for many years.
Anyways, the time went fast. I departed from work to go to the gym for a few hours before going home. I didn't stay too long in the gym because I had a appointment with my girfriend Maria at Aventura Mall. She is going to help in buying christmast present for my family. It won't take long because I already have a mental pictures what to buy for my family. I don't really like going to the mall during the holidays. It gets crowded with people and parking is like finding a needle in a haystack. However, we got lucky. We found a parking on the second level right next to the Macy store. We were fortunate because during the holidays parking is at a premium.
Once we finish shopping, we went to get something to eat. We got a philly cheese steak sandwhich value meal. The sandwhich was alright, but it did not have any flavor like the one in publix. Anyway, I am not going to dwell on it.
Afterwards, we left the mall and the night was over. My girlfriend could not stay longer because she had to wake up early in the morning to work. The good news for her that she is getting out of work early around noon.
As for me, I went home watch a little bit of Modern Marvel which is my favorite show. I stayed up alittle late, but fell asleep. Good night.
Monday, December 22, 2008
Diary: December 22, 2008
Today is Monday and the day started early in the morning. I usually don't work early in the morning, but because my co-worker, Mario, needed the early morning to train at his new job, so I agree to switch with him. I prefer to work early in order to leave at three in the afternoon, but it takes time to get used to waking up early in the morning.
I relieved Jaime, the security guard in the midnight shift. He gave all the necessary pass on information regarding the building operations. Truly, there is not much pass on information to be pass on because there is little that happens in the midnight. However, most of the information is based on the elevator operation status. The elevators of the building are very inconsistent. They occasionally stop working or temporarily stop moving while passengers are inside. Today early in the morning is no different. The low rise elevator number two stop working with a passenger inside. The gentleman seem very calm throughout the matter as if he was accustom getting stuck inside the elevator. The problem with the situation was my other co-worker, Alicia Herrera. Now, I normally don't care of other co-workers being late, but in her case, I do have issues with her.
Alicia Herrera has been working in the building for seven years, and lacks the security experiences that I am accustom to. In addition, she is very by the book, but yet she does not follow the rules set by management. She has this unrighteous habit of criticizing others for not following the rules.
She was late to work and I needed her to be here because I had someone stuck inside the elevator. I called Joel, building engineer to assist me on the matter. I called the Schindler Elevator company to have a technician to assist getting the gentleman out of the elevator. Now, the response time is unknown because the dispatcher does not have real time contact with the technician. I normally won't follow this procedure because it takes a considerate amount time to get someone to respond to our location. I prefer take the safer option and call fire rescue in order to eliminate any gaps in response time. My concern is for the person stuck in the elevator.
I don't know if the person stuck in the elevator is clausterphopic or has medical condition. For my experience, people stuck in the elevator don't get nervous, but I prefer not to take a chance. The liability for not responding quickly could be costly for the management. I like to close all gaps to eliminate any problems for the building that could be use in court of law.
Unfortunately, my co-worker, Alicia, has a different look at things. She is very naive and does not see the big picture. She doesn't understand the dynamics of dealing with this situations because it can get out of control depending on the person stuck inside the elevator. It all depends on the person's mental state how they are going to respond when being stuck inside the elevator. I prefer to take every call with a serious matter rather than apathetic attitude.
Fortunately, the gentleman got out safely after Joel successfully reset ted the elevator switch board. The gentleman called the front desk security to notified me that got out of the elevator safely.
The rest of day was quiet and in fact, the majority of the time is quite boring. I was posted at the loading dock which I took some time to read the Friday's newspaper and some personal books for expand my reading and writing abilities. The time in the morning goes faster because of the activities inside the loading dock. All my job is to take incoming couriers driver information to state their business in the building. Basically, I don't do much, but occasionally respond to calls to open doors or assist building engineers.
After lunch, I waited for three o'clock, but waiting for the timeline can be torture. The last 30 minutes were long. I tried to read, but eyes lids were too heavy for me to be able to read and understand what I am reading. It is difficult for me to read when your sleepy and sometimes, while I read, I slowly shut down my eye lids slowly. I don't know why this happens to me because this upsets me very much. I would love to read without dozing off slowly. I need find a way to prevent this odd behavior of mines. Anyway, the day finish and quickly departed from the building.
I just wanted to get home and go to sleep and get some rest. I wanted to buy some items before Christmas, but I am going to do accomplish it tomorrow with the assistant of my girlfriend. I slept about four hours, which helped me to recover. Now, I am going to have difficult time to sleep, but I am pretty sure I can manage to go to sleep.
Tomorrow, it will be another day. I just hope it goes fast.
I relieved Jaime, the security guard in the midnight shift. He gave all the necessary pass on information regarding the building operations. Truly, there is not much pass on information to be pass on because there is little that happens in the midnight. However, most of the information is based on the elevator operation status. The elevators of the building are very inconsistent. They occasionally stop working or temporarily stop moving while passengers are inside. Today early in the morning is no different. The low rise elevator number two stop working with a passenger inside. The gentleman seem very calm throughout the matter as if he was accustom getting stuck inside the elevator. The problem with the situation was my other co-worker, Alicia Herrera. Now, I normally don't care of other co-workers being late, but in her case, I do have issues with her.
Alicia Herrera has been working in the building for seven years, and lacks the security experiences that I am accustom to. In addition, she is very by the book, but yet she does not follow the rules set by management. She has this unrighteous habit of criticizing others for not following the rules.
She was late to work and I needed her to be here because I had someone stuck inside the elevator. I called Joel, building engineer to assist me on the matter. I called the Schindler Elevator company to have a technician to assist getting the gentleman out of the elevator. Now, the response time is unknown because the dispatcher does not have real time contact with the technician. I normally won't follow this procedure because it takes a considerate amount time to get someone to respond to our location. I prefer take the safer option and call fire rescue in order to eliminate any gaps in response time. My concern is for the person stuck in the elevator.
I don't know if the person stuck in the elevator is clausterphopic or has medical condition. For my experience, people stuck in the elevator don't get nervous, but I prefer not to take a chance. The liability for not responding quickly could be costly for the management. I like to close all gaps to eliminate any problems for the building that could be use in court of law.
Unfortunately, my co-worker, Alicia, has a different look at things. She is very naive and does not see the big picture. She doesn't understand the dynamics of dealing with this situations because it can get out of control depending on the person stuck inside the elevator. It all depends on the person's mental state how they are going to respond when being stuck inside the elevator. I prefer to take every call with a serious matter rather than apathetic attitude.
Fortunately, the gentleman got out safely after Joel successfully reset ted the elevator switch board. The gentleman called the front desk security to notified me that got out of the elevator safely.
The rest of day was quiet and in fact, the majority of the time is quite boring. I was posted at the loading dock which I took some time to read the Friday's newspaper and some personal books for expand my reading and writing abilities. The time in the morning goes faster because of the activities inside the loading dock. All my job is to take incoming couriers driver information to state their business in the building. Basically, I don't do much, but occasionally respond to calls to open doors or assist building engineers.
After lunch, I waited for three o'clock, but waiting for the timeline can be torture. The last 30 minutes were long. I tried to read, but eyes lids were too heavy for me to be able to read and understand what I am reading. It is difficult for me to read when your sleepy and sometimes, while I read, I slowly shut down my eye lids slowly. I don't know why this happens to me because this upsets me very much. I would love to read without dozing off slowly. I need find a way to prevent this odd behavior of mines. Anyway, the day finish and quickly departed from the building.
I just wanted to get home and go to sleep and get some rest. I wanted to buy some items before Christmas, but I am going to do accomplish it tomorrow with the assistant of my girlfriend. I slept about four hours, which helped me to recover. Now, I am going to have difficult time to sleep, but I am pretty sure I can manage to go to sleep.
Tomorrow, it will be another day. I just hope it goes fast.
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